I don’t remember how it started, but we were in his bed, and things were moving fast. He removed some of my clothes, and I helped him remove his. The sexual tension between us made it more exciting. When I saw him straining against his boxers, I realised he was exactly how I had imagined him to be. I couldn’t believe how gorgeous his body was. All I wanted to do at that point was to rip away the fabric and release his aroused cock. So I slowly moved towards him and removed his boxers without breaking eye contact. He stood in all his glory, and I was aroused and ready.

Noticing that, he brought his mouth upon mine, his kiss demanding. I kissed him back with the same energy. Then he bent his head towards my breast and grasped my nipple in his mouth. I couldn’t help but moan in painful pleasure. He roughly sucked on them, nipping and sucking. I was still trying to get over that sensation when I felt his hand on my legs; he slowly spread my legs wide, kissing me as he did so, making me moan in the process.

Then I felt him entering inside me, and I let out a gasp at first, then it got more comfortable, and the gasps turned into moans.

He shagged me so hard and didn’t hold back until he exploded with a loud sigh of contentment and then laid on me.

I felt this amazing sensation through my entire body and pinnacled as I lay there in this whole-body experience.

We held each other’s hand as we looked up to the ceiling, each of us with our thoughts. The silence between us continued for some minutes and I couldn’t hold it in any longer.

“So what are we now?” I asked, breaking the silence.

“What do you mean what are we, Ajoke?” he said, turning his face to me.

I have told you I am not in the headspace for a relationship right now. I am not ready yet. You need to understand that, and I don’t like that you are bringing it up now, in this position,” he continued, standing up from the bed while he put on his boxers.

“I’m sorry. I just wanted to be sure if…” I stopped as he walked out of the room, banging the door.

At that point, I knew I had missed it. I had always doubted the possibility of Tunde and me getting together. My mom would say that life doesn’t always give us what we want, and I guess Tunde was one of those things. As a colleague at work, I tried to respect boundaries and resist my feelings, but I couldn’t help getting attached. I was confused and didn’t want to disrespect myself or give Tunde a negative impression, so I kept my distance.

Giving love another chance was the last thing I thought I would do this year until I met Tunde. He came into my life, and he changed everything. He joined the company I was working with a few days after I was employed. I got into the company with the mindset of focusing on myself, not mingling with anybody, and getting better at my job, and everything was going as planned until Tunde came into the picture. We started talking, and he became my favourite person. I got obsessed, and he found out I liked him before I knew it. Although he liked me too, he said he wasn’t ready for a relationship. I hoped we’d re-discuss it in a few months, but months went by, and he avoided conversations about us. I was confused and didn’t want to bug him, but it was killing me inside. I didn’t know if I should wait or move on.

Waiting for him wouldn’t be a burden if he was giving me the attention I needed or reassuring me about us, but he wouldn’t say anything and totally cut off any form of communication with me after work. We would only talk and flirt with each other at work, and that was it. It was so draining for me, and I couldn’t complain.

He finally invited me to his house, and I went with hope that he was finally ready for us. But there we were, after having had mind-blowing sex, he didn’t want to talk about us. As he put it, he is not ready for a relationship. I left feeling worse than I had felt going there, realising I had allowed my fantasies to cloud my judgment.

Dorcas Akintoye
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Dorcas Akintoye is a versatile writer with a passion for beauty, fashion, relationships, and culinary delight. With a keen eye for detail and a passion for storytelling, she adds a touch of elegance to every topic she explores. She is a writer at THEWILL DOWNTOWN.